http://bible.com/1/psa.139.13-14.KJV

Caputured by What I'm After

Dear God,

I need you to blow in my life. 

If you don't favor my work, it will not prosper. Settle my thoughts, give me direction and the tenacity to follow your leading. I struggle some days privately, just trying to fit it all in; to be your daughter, a wife, a mother, a missionary, a lover, a good citizen, my sister's keeper. Many times I have failed. Help me not to compromise the Faith, and yet be all things to all people. Your enemy is my enemy. Help me to hear you clearly, understand you deeply, and see you as clear as the donkey did in the book of Numbers (Num. 22) and saved the life of the prophet.  

Help me, blow on me, ignite the fire in me, to bless you first, my family second, and all those that I encounter. Teach me how with simplicity, to carry my cross, and the Ministry of Christ, the light of salvation into dark places. Strengthen me for the journey that is my life, my purpose for which you have allowed me to live again this day. 

Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice. The shedding of your blood, which soaks the platform on which I stand, I preach, I teach, I love, I fear, and even fall. When I fall on this platform, I am even more grateful for that blood which now I am drenched in, it covers me, protects me, washes me, atones for me and presents me faultless. I fight daily and bring my body and mind under your authority, and I am grateful for the power, in this your shed blood. 

I surrender all of me to you, KNOWING that all of you loves all of me, and died for my liberation from sin. 

Today, I discipline my body, my soul, and my spirit to be FitByFaith.  I will love with your Love.  I reach forward with my heart and both hands,  dropping from my them people who have hurt and offended me, knowing that the Love in front of me, is greater than the hurt behind me. So I love again, with all its vulnerability, strength, grace, comfort and the with same measure, that I want your love to meet me. 

This prayer does not end. NOW I cast it towards your feet in heaven, and ask for you, again, to breathe, and blow on me, keep me, preserve me, until I rest in your presence in your arms. 

Your Daughter, 
Nikki.

That Moment

That moment, when it's easier to open your eyes in the dark than in the light.
That moment, when you realize that your doing the same things expecting different results. But your question is; What do I change? Do you throw it all out? Do you change all of it or just pieces? Then what pieces?
That moment, when you realize people haven't been real with you, but opportunistic.
That moment, when you realize you have been many people's fool.
Oh PolyAnna wake up! Oh! how the dark seems so much easier! But way leads on the way! I FINALLY understand Robert!  Soberity is good, but also over rated!
That moment, when you would trade your knowing for your unknowing... BUT You can never unknow.
So open your eyes in the dark and allow the light to slowly filter in.  Good Morning, and it will be.

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Meditation: Converting my Soul to the Utmost!

Psalm 1 (King James Version)

1 Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful . 2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD; and in His law doth he meditate day and night. 3 And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water,that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither ; and whatsoever he doethshall prosper . 4 The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away . 5 Therefore the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous. 6 For the LORD knoweth the way of the righteous: but the way of the ungodly shall perish .

http://www.biblestudytools.com/kjv/psalms/1.html 

Target Verse: 2b) ; and in His law doth he meditate day and night.

Topic: MEDITATE

Definition of MEDITATE

intransitive verb (having no object)

1: to engage in contemplation or reflection

2: to engage in mental exercise (as concentration on one's breathing or repetition of a mantra) for the purpose of reaching a heightened level of spiritual awareness

transitive verb (having an object) WE ARE HERE SINCE WE HAVE AN OBJECT!

1: to focus one's thoughts on : reflect on or ponder over

2: to plan or project in the mind : intend, purpose

The object of meditation=God’s Law

BASIC INFO...

When: Day & Night

Why: It is his delight, he likes it.

Who (does this): The man that is not walking in the ungodly counsel

What (comes out of this): He is stable. He is productive. He WILL prosper.

Caveat One: 

There is strange thing about the meditation of/on God's will.

It will convert your soul. (Psalm 19:7-11)

Convert means to bring over from one belief, view, or party to another.

Conversion of the soul does not happen at salvation, but it does begin the process.

The soul contains your, mind, will and emotions.

You mind, will and emotions will take time to convert and discipline to the new way of believing. 

Soul conversion does not take place in a once in a while, Sunday morning experience. Two hours on Sunday morning is no match for the other 166 hours in the week if you use them to fill your mind with the world. What you’ve heard on Sunday, regardless of how good it is, will be choked out and your harvest forfeited.

My Pastor (R.A. Cranford, The Community Church of Christ, theccoc.org) delivers enough Word to set us free every Sunday...if our soul is prepared to cooperate with the seed he is sowing into us. We prepare our soul through meditaion on the Law of the Lord, and making our mind up to follow it. 

As we commit to sow the seed of God’s word into our lives on a consistent basis we will begin to see God work in our lives in a way we have always hoped He would. But we must be committed to having the soil ready to receive and embrace the scriptures. This is done through a discipline lifestyle of daily devotions, prayer, meditaion, and praise to God.  It takes work but as it is working the scriptures in Psalms 19:7-11 become a song in your heart that you can relate to. (see:

The Law of the Lord Is Perfect (Psalm 19:7-11) - as sung by Jack Marti

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_35pl3CrGY)

This is why the meditation on the "Law of the Lord" is essential to your soul being converted or to say it differently to ...to bring your mind, will, and emotions over from your former belief to this new way of believing. 

The "Law of the Lord" is His word, His will, and of course in found throughout the bible.

Caveat Two:

Never believe that your soul is finished being converted.

The process will not stop until you have reach your goal.

So like Apostle Paul says,"

13 Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended : but this one thing I do, forgetting thosethings which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, 14 I press towardthe mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. 

Philippians 3:13-14 (King James Version)

Always apply patience to yourself during this life process, and as conversion is happening in you, strenghthen the brothren.

Luke 22:32 (King James Version)

" But I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not: and when thou art converted , 

  strengthen thy brethren."

Be Forever Blessed, 

Missionary Banks

SUCCESS IS SEXY

This morning I am reflecting back on my life.
I am 43 years old. My desires are strong, my will is strong. I am determined, with a silent but growing fierceness. Some moments I think, "Hey girl, your married, have four kids, this is to late to be getting in this game. You should be content with just losing weight."

When I was younger I wanted this for the attention, and was afraid to have it for the very same reason.  But, I am not afraid anymore and  I am not content with just losing weight.  I am hungry for a fit body.  It is not only about the sexiness of it, the feeling of it, but about the brutal accomplishment!  To take this body, that has gone through more than I can ever mention, and mold it, sculpt into a fine chiseled product.   To have the strength to hold my own weight, lift my own weight. The endurance to run, walk, climb, squat or whatever. Then there is the message that your body says to others when you care for it. I take care of what is mines, I take charge of what is in my possession, I care about me.

When I was 300 lbs, I would look at thin, small people and say I doesn't cost them anything to move. What I meant by that is, they at least appeared to be light on their feet. It was costing me pain and lots of energy to just stand up! I want that feeling of being agile and limber. Gracefully crossing a room with confidence that if I do trip and fall, I can extend out my arms and body can brace and take the fall.

 I know BETTER now. Wishing for it will not bring it to me. What I seek, is not just a smaller size, but a powerful fit body.  It will cost me to get that light, powerful look and feeling. It will cost me sacrifice, some pain, self denial, eating right for me, focus and determination.

When I see a woman's fit body I think she has IT!  She has temerity, tenacity and the audacity to display it. That WILL be me. I WILL apprehend and then be #CapturedByWhatImAfter.

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Caputured by What I'm After

Dear God,

I need you to blow in my life. 

If you don't favor my work, it will not prosper. Settle my thoughts, give me direction and the tenacity to follow your leading. I struggle some days privately, just trying to fit it all in; to be your daughter, a wife, a mother, a missionary, a lover, a good citizen, my sister's keeper. Many times I have failed. Help me not to compromise the Faith, and yet be all things to all people. Your enemy is my enemy. Help me to hear you clearly, understand you deeply, and see you as clear as the donkey did in the book of Numbers (Num. 22) and saved the life of the prophet.  

Help me, blow on me, ignite the fire in me, to bless you first, my family second, and all those that I encounter. Teach me how with simplicity, to carry my cross, and the Ministry of Christ, the light of salvation into dark places. Strengthen me for the journey that is my life, my purpose for which you have allowed me to live again this day.

Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice. The shedding of your blood, which soaks the platform on which I stand, I preach, I teach, I love, I fear, and even fall. When I fall on this platform, I am even more grateful for that blood which now I am drenched in, it covers me, protects me, washes me, atones for me and presents me faultless. I fight daily and bring my body and mind under your authority, and I am grateful for the power, in this your shed blood. 

I surrender all of me to you, KNOWING that all of you loves all of me, and died for my liberation from sin. 

Today, I discipline my body, my soul, and my spirit to be FitByFaith.  I will love with your Love.  I reach forward with my heart and both hands,  dropping from my them people who have hurt and offended me, knowing that the Love in front of me is greater than the hurt behind me. So I love again, with all its vulnerability, strength, grace, comfort and the with same measure, that I want your love to meet me. 

This prayer does not end. NOW I cast it towards your feet in heaven, and ask for you, again, to breathe, and blow on me, keep me, preserve me, until I rest in your presence in your arms. 

Your Daughter, 

Nikki.